TheMadHatter
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- Jul 29, 2009
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I'm going to give facts, not what-ifs. this is what i felt that night, i just want your opinion.
i weight 125 lbs, and the midnight before i took 2 mg of valium (no tolerance), when i woke up at 8 i gulped poppy tea that consisted of too jumbo pods. at 6:30 pm still somewhat high i drank another 2 pods. valium has lasted as long as two full days on me before, and usually when consuming pod tea i'll split 3 pods over the course of maybe 5 hours.
around 8 o'clock i noticed my breathing was becoming increasingly shallow and then automatic respiration stopped and i had to force labored breathing. i did not nod off during this dangerous period.
at 11 o'clock autonomic respiration was rearing it's head and while i still focused on my breathing it was again natural (though terribly depressed).
at 1 a.m. my dad came home and we started talking (the first time i had taken my mind of my chest) and i seemed to be breathing enough without a conscious effort in the midst of conversation.
at 2 a.m. still shocked by the experience/paranoid about my breathing i took a shower where i held my breath for a few seconds to see if any painful sensations would force me to breathe, i don't believe i felt discomfort though i seemed to be getting at least the minimum level of oxygen necessary every minute.
at 2:30 i am about to go to sleep, positive i am breathing naturally again with enough efficacy to fuel my blood. i think to myself if i were to continue to breathe like this while asleep, i will get all the oxygen i need. feeling like i beat a mild overdose i go to sleep.
at 6 am i wake up and my lips/fingertips look normal (not blue) and i am still high/breathing about the same.
everything after this is just wierd. i feel alien/ghost like, as though my words are no longer hemmed in quotations. words are harder to find/meaning is lost. i know that when you go to sleep your breathing slows, so i assumed mediocre breathing awake + sleep = possible apnea or cerebral hypoxia. do you think based off of this retelling i deprived my brain of oxygen from 2:30-6, or is this just in my head?
i weight 125 lbs, and the midnight before i took 2 mg of valium (no tolerance), when i woke up at 8 i gulped poppy tea that consisted of too jumbo pods. at 6:30 pm still somewhat high i drank another 2 pods. valium has lasted as long as two full days on me before, and usually when consuming pod tea i'll split 3 pods over the course of maybe 5 hours.
around 8 o'clock i noticed my breathing was becoming increasingly shallow and then automatic respiration stopped and i had to force labored breathing. i did not nod off during this dangerous period.
at 11 o'clock autonomic respiration was rearing it's head and while i still focused on my breathing it was again natural (though terribly depressed).
at 1 a.m. my dad came home and we started talking (the first time i had taken my mind of my chest) and i seemed to be breathing enough without a conscious effort in the midst of conversation.
at 2 a.m. still shocked by the experience/paranoid about my breathing i took a shower where i held my breath for a few seconds to see if any painful sensations would force me to breathe, i don't believe i felt discomfort though i seemed to be getting at least the minimum level of oxygen necessary every minute.
at 2:30 i am about to go to sleep, positive i am breathing naturally again with enough efficacy to fuel my blood. i think to myself if i were to continue to breathe like this while asleep, i will get all the oxygen i need. feeling like i beat a mild overdose i go to sleep.
at 6 am i wake up and my lips/fingertips look normal (not blue) and i am still high/breathing about the same.
everything after this is just wierd. i feel alien/ghost like, as though my words are no longer hemmed in quotations. words are harder to find/meaning is lost. i know that when you go to sleep your breathing slows, so i assumed mediocre breathing awake + sleep = possible apnea or cerebral hypoxia. do you think based off of this retelling i deprived my brain of oxygen from 2:30-6, or is this just in my head?
